an unexpected gift

thank you so much for all your sweet comments yesterday.
it means so much that you stop by this little blog o' mine and i love hearing from you. :)

we got to hear the heartbeat today!  yay!!!
that moment of hearing the heartbeat for the first time is amazing.
just to know that it's real and there truly is a little baby in there....heart beating away.  so precious.
i always feel a little nervous until i hear the heartbeat....and it's so exciting every time.
such a blessing.

so....to say this was a surprise would be a huge understatement.
we were all on track to start the adoption process.
we were getting our finances all in order.
we had started gathering the paper work and we were going to kick it into full swing by the end of the year.
3 days before christmas we found out God had other plans for us.
it was definitely an adjustment at first....switching gears like that.
God has a different plan for us than we thought....as is so often the case.
i want anything God has for us....and this is such a gift.
i want God's plan for us, not mine. not my agenda...no matter how noble it seems.

this is why i have not been posting as much and have basically been such a debbie downer this winter.
i have felt pretty rough. 
it's been hard to just function and do what is required of me...anything extra has been put on hold for a couple of months.
aj has been amazing and has totally taken up the slack....doing laundry, cooking meals, pretty much as soon as he walks in the door, i go lay down and he takes over.
so thankful for him!
i feel like i see a light at the end of tunnel and should be feeling much better soon.
i'm already feeling a lot better for a good chunk of the day. 

and by the way, i am pretty sure this is another boy because the heartbeat today was exactly the same as it was with others.  ;) Pin It